Advising

My friend asked me for some advice today. Relationship advice. I don’t know why he asked me of all people. I’m the last person you wanna ask about relationship advice. He’s crazy, but maybe things will work out? Hopefully. I’m sure my advice wasn’t terrible.

Blech

I’m so tired. All I want to do is stay in bed and sleep. I don’t want go out, go to work, or even leave my room. I’m so lazy and sad.

Messy apology

I have been so very uncertain about how I feel about everything lately. I wish I knew what I needed to do to get rid of these feelings. I have things going ok for myself but I still feel like a hot mess.

Hey Linda. If you’re reading this, I want to apologize for not getting your hints, and not understanding your feelings, and this whole crush thing. I know that its been a long time and you’re probably sick of me. I would be. I’m pretty sick of me right now. I am a nuisance. I know that. All those stupid texts, bothering you… I’m sorry. I’m sure you don’t want to talk to me so I want you to take this as my apology for everything. I know I asked to hang out a lot before, and they ended up being boring, so I won’t bother you with that anymore. I hope that you can forgive me, and that maybe we can be friends again. Until then, I am sorry.

Departure

Off you go, back to the world. Fly by night into darkness. May your wings unfurl and protect you. Let courage light your way and guide you. Be strong, be swift, follow your heart. Reach towards your dreams, fly with confidence. I believe in you, I know you’ll soar. Never forget, you have a home. Return here when you tire, when you lose your way. Love will be waiting for you. Here you can rest. Here I’ll be.

Love eternally.

If I had it my way.

If I had it my way, I would live in my imagination.

I would make what I dream of into my reality.

Sadness wouldn’t be an issue.

Life would be easy.

Things would be simple. I’d know what I want.

I want happy. I want you to be happy. I want us to be happy.

If I had it my way, I’d be the one to make you happy.

We could be happy, together.

If I only had it my way.

Headlights

It’s never going to bring me down.

Falling

I watched the rain fall, just like I knew it would. It’s never going to bring me down. The rain falls. As it has before, as it will again. Change doesn’t come to the rain. Rain becomes rain. It falls. Falling falling falling back to earth. Life goes on.